NOVANEWS
“I feel like a desperate, freedom-loving wild-animal in a cage, that will kill itself trying to smash through the bars .”
Henry, I’m doing okay, thanks for asking. I managed to land a job with an insurance provider, as a Business Analyst.
You’d think I’d be thrilled, but I find it increasingly difficult to live-in this world, going about frivolously, “working”, interacting with completely ignorant, brainwashed folks in the process… I’m quite discouraged at the moment.
Once you learn the truth, you can’t unlearn it, or so the saying goes. Well, I find myself wondering if Id be better off as the old, ignorant me.
My wife thinks so, though she wont come right out and say it. She says I’m so serious all the time, I never laugh anymore, that I seem vindictive and bitter toward the world… and its true. I am.
See… knowing that my schooling was a device designed to make me a subservient little employee and tax slave that would embrace the hive mind.
Knowing that getting a job where I’m told when to arrive and when to leave (which translates into what time I am to sleep and wake), what to wear, when I may eat and for how long, maybe even the appropriate time to defecate…
Knowing that it’s all an extension of schooling, that damned brainwashing process our parents unwittingly put us through, that the government is now telling me to do with my own daughter…
It doesn’t even make me sick, Henry.
It make me feel like a desperate, freedom-loving wild-animal in a cage, that will kill itself trying to smash through the bars because that’s just how much it wants to be free… that’s where I’m at right now.
I’m so angry, and I’m so tired at the same time. I feel like a shell-shocked veteran, the difference being that it is my life which is the war.
I’m not sure where to go from here. I know I must “work” to obtain that precious green paper that everyone around me adores so goddamned much.
But beyond that, I’m actually debating unplugging for a while: staying away from the internet, ignoring email, ignoring my favorite news websites & blogs, putting down my books… and reading one thing only: my Bible.
Sorry for the weighted nature of this email. If you have any suggestions or methods that work for you re: how to cope and function in the fable while being aware of reality, I’d love to hear them.
“Bob”
